Del Antonio

Relationships & Monogamy: My expectation in a relationship is not monogamy, it’s honesty.  I hope to have the type of relationship that promotes honesty and communication.  You may not want me to be the only person who fucks you for the rest of your life and it’s a possibility I may want to have sex with someone else.  If this is the case I want a partner where we can have these conversations about our relationship.  I don’t believe in blueprints for relationships.  I believe they should each be customized based on the two people involved.  What I want to know is if I was in an accident and lost my legs would you push me around?  That’s what matters.  How unselfishly and unconditionally you can love me.  Honesty is love and the highest respect you can give someone.  Don’t be fascinated with an idea that does not fit into who you are and spend your life trying to accommodate an idea that’s not truly what you want.  I have had so many conversations with someone else’s man to know better.  Love isn’t a cage nor should a relationship be jail.  I am into hardcore freedom and acceptance of my partner, not abiding by some cute little pamphlet that someone thought I should live by.

Ok so a lot of people are fascinated, amazed or just simply appreciate how honest and candid I am.  I want to give a shout out to my foundation that allowed me to be.  My grandmother always gave me freedom of expression.  We didn’t have secrets.  We didn’t lie to each other, there was never a need.  the best approval a son can have to me comes from a father.  In my eyes, to not be the macho, ladies man like my dad was but still be loved for me being the man’s man LOL was everything.  I didn’t have a reason to prove myself, I could just be myself.  My two aunts on my mom side were like two pillowcases.  they were my alright team.  Everything was going to be alright.  They just loved me with freedom, no rules or restraints to it.  This gave me the platform for me to be honest always.  If you know me, you know I’m a horrible liar, so I don’t even try it. – Shout out to unconditionally love!

I’m often accused as the asshole, the mean guy, the crazy one – I’ll be that! Time is something I don’t have. So to fill my atmosphere of people who I can’t have healthy relationships with or even respectable dialogues..I have to ask myself why are we here. To exchange words and titles that sound like the word friend, brother, my boi etc…to only watch it turn on and off like a light switch based on if you have or don’t have a boyfriend, depending on if I’m physically around you or not, or merely at the convenience of.. I’ll pass. The kind of pain and hurt I’ve endured I don’t have much room for unnecessary associations that hurt me as well. A lot of people want to become friends with me and I am very stand offish to it, mainly because people like the idea of the word friend more than they like the accountability of it. I move slow going into anything new. I’ve seen too much, I’ve felt too much. I’m okay in my bubble and only interacting in the social media world. So when I shy away from the conversations of becoming friends, its not that I’m arrogant or stuck on myself…I’m just very cautious. So far as those I no longer communicate with, the truth is I reached out, they didn’t reach back…you can’t hold a hand that’s stuck in someone’s pocket. i don’t like cutting people off but i will if you hurt me or show no respect for our relationship. So call me crazy but I actually have more sense than you.